Same story but different outcome!
Same time as you pushed through that gym session, did you do it for your own benefit, to match your own scale, or to pressure from the maintenance social norm?
Whatever reason why you did it, it probably wasn’t the first time you asked yourself the question: who am I to fit into this world?
And secondly, what is all that benefits from the time being, of you having to face your own doubts etc.
It’s all a game, and it’s all about getting down to who you’re doing it for!